- Monday, December 14, 2009
i was blog hopping for the past hour
and one of the particular blogs i went was charity 6's first blog
when i was scrolling through the posts, i realised that there was a lot of quarrels and unhappy stuff on it
i guess thats what happens when you are younger and then you become more open with their feelings
or perhaps there are many intellectuals blogging there and they just have sharp-tongues
i get a weird idea that its a grooming for the big shots they are going to become
and i suppose they will
and its pretty cool seeing how the people there think much more maturely that some people whom i currently know now, it kind of bring back a feel of nostalgia
I'm not saying that rv people or the other friends i made in the past three years are no good
they have their good side and their good points
it just that they differ from the people who i mix with when im younger
a far cry in fact, in some ways
and that leads to nostalgia sometimes when i look back at the past memories or read their blogs
and i highly admire many ch6'06 people because they have ambitions, goals in their lives
they tend to continuously improve themselves and they are not afraid to say so
forward-looking i would say, and nervetheless, the willingness to put in the hard effort to do so
and they carry themselves with respect, being open with their feelings
i guess i should learn from them but the past three years have carved me into a person who is unwillingly to open up myself at times
confidence, the key ideal-i should grasp that more
and strive, instead of being influenced by all the surrounding factors
haha, that is to say
the next time i get affected or distracted by a guy or other superficial things like msn, facebook
i should just go conk my head until i forgot about it and focus on what's important at the current moment.(:-i wish that i will have the motivation to do that
and im so going to do that next year, even if i die trying(exaggeration!), but at least i tried(:
haha and i got to thank lingyue
after i read your blog about your study plans, i feel so motivated(haha!)
im so going to force myself to do more work so i won't swamped or stupid next year
i guess i don't want to look back at the end of the holidays and realised i have been an unproductive fool, so kick me if i fail to be productive>.<
and yes, lingyue's post inspired me to reflect on 2009
all in all, 209 has been a better year for me than 2008.
i think 2008 has been a really screwed year for me, what with my whacked out sister, my crazy obsession with sms(what a waste of time><), being not bothered with my studies etc.
2009, the first half was pretty okay, was doing well and somehow, managed to focus on what was important.the next half was again screwed.kept smsing and msning, even during eoys(i can't believ i wasted so much time!) and now im regretting since i almost failed my physics, though i did considerably well for the rest
but yeah, next year i think i shall stop texting and msning so much
its going to be hitting the books, sports, lots of sun, and to start taking the initiative to read the bible(:
i guess i have been really frank in this post
and from now on, i shall state plainly what i feel on this blog
haha, but there won't be flaming, i promise
oh and my resolve for 2010 is not to be cocky/arrogant and to quit bitching(be nice to everybody)-save people from my horrid temper.(:
oh yeah, and chiong for chinese so i can score an A for o'level chinese(i'll try my best)
must make 2010 a meaningful year so i can look back in 2011 and sigh and say"ahh, what a great year it was"
anw toodles:D
i shall "bounce off"-(quoted by my dearest sister) to attack my biology ten year series(:
im not to the extent of a mugger yet;D
HAHAH
Posted @Monday, December 14, 2009
Huiwen:D